This is my own journey. It has taken me a while to get myself mentally ready to look the way I want to look. I myself have struggled with weight my entire life. My journey through this life has been a difficult one. The obstacles came one after the other, so much so that I never had a chance to catch my breath. I have endured many trials. I am a survivor of childhood trauma, assault, rape and betrayal. I have lost children. I knew all too well what it felt like to walk in darkness. I felt alone, scared, and continuously searching for relief. It was like drowning and I could not keep my head above water. Gaining weight and having, literally, a cushion from the world, was a conscious and subconscious decision. The excess weight acts like a suit of armor. I am ready to shed that armor now.
All of the guilt, the shame, and burden finally broke me. The day had come when I finally fell to my knees and I broke down. I could not fight like this any longer. I can not live like this anymore. For the very first time in my life…I surrender ALL OF IT. That very moment changed my life. I came to my own source of strength. I can only hope that for others too. So, my advice to others would be to search deep down and find your strength to make a change. Whether it is the UNIVERSE or a Higher Power…BELIEVE. Just believe. Believe enough in yourself and love yourself enough to make this change happen.
This is something I wrote to myself and placed on my mirror so I could read it every day while I brushed my teeth.
“It is time. It is time, Sahana. It is time to look the way you want to look. It is time to feel the way you want to feel. Healthy and Happy is SEXY. Do this for YOU. The universe wants you to be respectful and cherish the gift that has been given to you.
It all starts with YOU.”
“My mind is ready to see the TRUE reflection of who I am in the mirror. This is the beginning of my transition. Are you ready?”
Start your TRANSITION Today.